She called me up to tell me and she was crying. My brother-in-law would have been so proud of her and because someone was texting when they should have been paying attention while they were driving, he isn't here to celebrate this huge accomplishment with her. Will I ever be able to move past the anger that I feel whenever I think about my Dad and BIL?
My sister has come so far these past three months but everywhere she turns she is reminded that her husband will never be coming home again. I am so blessed that my husband came home from that trip and I keep asking myself "why am I the lucky one?" I know I have to just accept what is and move on but it is so damn hard! So many questions and "what ifs" keep playing in my head. Sometimes I feel like it will never end. You want to hear something "funny"? A week before the accident, I actually signed Oprah's "no phone zone" contract. Very out of character for me.
Life really does go on....my sister, my husband and myself are living proof of that!
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I was catching up on blog reading and read your past few entries. Hopefully you are doing aok on your fill/unfill. :) I just felt hungry for you reading your posts. Good luck on the upper GI. You have a little band with 4cc. Mine seems huge at 14 cc.
I have friends who have the Kindle and LOVE it!
CONGRATS to your sister on her accomplishment! She is fortunate to have you and other family members to cheer her on. Her husband is smiling and cheering for her as well, no doubt. :)
I feel your anger as well over the situation and I have never met your family. Hang in there and know that you have the love and support of many. Hugs!
Your sister must be so proud and I'm sure your brother-in-law is proud of her too. That is weird about the "no phone" contract. Thanks for your comment about the all inclusive. I'm curious what HI means - you said your travel agent talked you out of HI, but not sure what that means.
Congratulations to your sis! That is awesome!!
I don't know if your anger will ever go away. Maybe one day it won't reside at the surface?
I didn't realize that the person was texting. Again, I'm so sorry hun.
I just feel so sad for all of you. I am sure your BIL is looking down on her and smiling. God bless you all.
Congrats to your sister-- I am so sorry for the pain of your family's loss.... it will never go away, but I am certain that it will ease in time and the happier memories will be the ones that surface before the sadness and nonsensibility of the accident.
congrats to your sister!
:)
I know your BIL and your Dad must be beaming from above at your sister's news. I think about you and your family all the time. I can't imagine your pain, I hope in time, it will get better.
Big Hug!
That is amazing...
You know they are smiling down on her...
We should start a challenge - A NO TEXT WHILE DRIVING ONE!
I'm so happy your sister has some good news to share!
Thanks for checking on me and kicking my butt a little!
I don't think that what your family has gone through can be fixed in 3months. Forgiveness is hard. I'm sure that the guy feels horrible and is dealing with his own greif over the situation, but that doesn't take away from the fact that it was his fault. I can't fathom what you and your family are feeling, but know that all of those emotions are normal. You can feel however you want to.
I think and hope the anger will fade but it will take much more time than has passed.
Just keep doing what you're doing and appreciating how very lucky you are (and all of us too) to have your hubby with you. And just keep being there for your sister...she is lucky to have you.
If your sister is anything like you, she is a strong one I'm sure. And he is with her, celebrating her achievement. he may not be there in person, but you know he spends his day along side her, guiding her in her life. You will be able to move past this, Jacquie. Maybe this is your chance to speak up and speak out about the dangers of cell phones and driving. Don't just follow Oprah, lead others, Jacquie. :)
Oh my lovebug...my heart just aches for you. I think grief holds many stages and one of them is anger....and you have every right to be that right now. You will never be who you were before they passed away...but you know why? Because that's the kind of amazing people they were...they left imprints - big ones - ones that never fade....you are different now...stronger, wiser, more grateful, and less apt to take things for granted....take care of you. You are always in my heart.
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